smoke pot, take pills
get high. Drugs kill!
Break ties, lose friends
get lost and do it again.
Hallucinate to feel free,
i was lost but you found me.
Didn't want me for who i was.
life isn't fair for either of us.

I wouldn't lie, to spare your heart
I'm sorry if the truth tore us apart.
and I'm almost sure its better this way.
I'm giving up on you, and it ends today.

My heart song

at the end of our broken road

I tried to tell you.
but you didn't listen.

He is in love with who i used to be

and i don't know how to be her :(


but for you baby... i will try anything!

To be perfect like you

Lifes little twists and turns

I'll pop another pill, and snort another line.
Take another hit and it will all be fine.
Life seems so pointless, so what's the point?
If i cant drown my sorrows in liquor, I'll just smoke another joint!
I'm so sick of being sober, but i cant stay high.
I dropped 3 hits of acid and i swear i could fly.
I'm killing myself slowly, in the best possible way.
I'm numb from all the poison running through my veins.
One more pill to try to get right.
One more pill and for my life i might have to fight.
I didn't need this when i had you.
this all started when you said we were through!
You were my heroin, and i craved you everyday.
now that I'm without you i need you in every way.

A little piece of me died when you said you didn't love me anymore.

I'm still alone. I am trying so hard to be happy and do right for myself. What can i do? I moved back to six mile, all by myself. I'm kind of excited but not really. I'm afraid of whats going to happen to me now! I still don't have a job, and that sucks. I miss my friends... well the ones I'm not with everyday. My life is changing so fast. I hate growing up! Its really hard.

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(candy coated death lined with crystal meth)

I'm so confused! I feel lost and helpless. What can i do now? My power is being cut off today and i have to get rid of all my children. It really sucks too because i have nowhere really to go. I don't want to stay with my mom because she hates me 5 days out of the week. I want my own place, and to be in school again. I know i have to make these things happen for myself, no one else will.
I went to my Dad's house last night. He looks kinda bad. He has gained i know 20lbs since i seen him last. He looks old, but like a young Santa, pregnant with quads :) But i love him none the less. He is always there for me when i screw up.
I got dumped and i kinda stung because it was by a 30 year old alcoholic with 3 kids. I'm lame right? He left me with a $500 power bill! that's why my power is being turned off. I will be hanging out in montevallo soon though, thank god! When i move to six mile i would rather commute to there anyway. I miss my friends. I don't feel like i know anyone anymore. I want a family that stays together. You know i have NEVER been to a family reunion of my own. I don't have any grandparents anymore. My aunts and uncles have nothing to do with me. I don't know.

"I don't giva a damn" <--- as Walter would say

I'm drawing a blank..

just taken today :)

Under the influence?

So what if the only time i can think straight is when I'm "gone"! I would rather be where I am now then sober and depressed. i cant feel bad, I'm to far down already. why cant you just love me back? baby be mine

I'm so lost without you.

I know I'm a crazy bitch but what the hell? We all have flaws.

I understand not being able to put up with my crazy ass though. I'm quite the desperado. I'm looking to hard for something i have lost so many times. Love? is it real?

The battle was lost but not the war

Days are only getting colder without you by my side. I wake up every morning wishing i would die. I miss your face and the sound of your voice. It would have been me if i had a choice. I have all this pain and hurt I'm holding in. God smells my death, to him it's my sin. Married like we were and then torn apart. Now that your gone I don't think i have a heart. I cant tell him the truth when he looks in my eyes. When i told him i loved him too it even caught me by surprise. My mind has twisted itself into believing, because i wasn't the one who saw you bleeding. I might see your face again in a crowded place or you could call me again if that was the case. I don't know that your gone, in refuse to believe. you are my love and you would never leave!

I'd die for you!

I need to feel loved. Why did I think I would be okay alone? I'm so stupid. Its all my fault! I'm so greedy and selfish i cant share my heart. I really want to, but i want to "know" its right. I don't want to get hurt again. I mean who would want me now any way. I'm used and life has left me so calloused. I don't feel things like i used to. Its not the same and I'm so afraid it never will be again. How can any one love me, I'm numb. My life is so empty without him. I cant stand on my own.