I'd die for you!

I need to feel loved. Why did I think I would be okay alone? I'm so stupid. Its all my fault! I'm so greedy and selfish i cant share my heart. I really want to, but i want to "know" its right. I don't want to get hurt again. I mean who would want me now any way. I'm used and life has left me so calloused. I don't feel things like i used to. Its not the same and I'm so afraid it never will be again. How can any one love me, I'm numb. My life is so empty without him. I cant stand on my own.