The battle was lost but not the war

Days are only getting colder without you by my side. I wake up every morning wishing i would die. I miss your face and the sound of your voice. It would have been me if i had a choice. I have all this pain and hurt I'm holding in. God smells my death, to him it's my sin. Married like we were and then torn apart. Now that your gone I don't think i have a heart. I cant tell him the truth when he looks in my eyes. When i told him i loved him too it even caught me by surprise. My mind has twisted itself into believing, because i wasn't the one who saw you bleeding. I might see your face again in a crowded place or you could call me again if that was the case. I don't know that your gone, in refuse to believe. you are my love and you would never leave!